Wednesday, April 13, 2011
No Comfort in Slumber or Stupidity
Ohhh, my head...
I've been put on new medication by the doc, and it feels like I've just roofied myself.
Normally I'm a sleep Nazi - I refuse to have a lie-in unless it's a weekend to keep my schedule as regular as possible.
However, on Sunday (my first day on mirtazapine) I woke up at noon, had something to eat and didn't get up again until 6pm. Other days have been variation on this 'sleep alot, eat, try to do something useful, fail, sleep' theme.
When I'm awake I feel like I'm on a gently rocking boat. Concentration is terrible, dry mouth ever present. Apparently these are pretty normal side effects. My doc recommended mirtazapine because I wanted something that wasn't an SSRI.
Hey, they work, but I want my libido back! My 'date knickers' are starting to develop abandonment issues. So... I'm going to give mirtazapine 2-3 weeks, then see what happens.
My main concern is that my brain will rot and my intelligence will be lowered. Paranoid? Yes. But there are trees out there lumbering more gracefully than I right now.
Also, possessing the quickness of intellect found in recently beheaded poultry does nothing for one's esteem.
Being this stupid and clumsy is really rather trying. Let's hope it's only temporary.