"Thanks to all of you for listening, and we hope you have a story-worthy week...", Dan Kennedy's voice continues, giving credit to the producers, PRX and the like.
I'm in the kitchen, listening to The Moth's non-fiction storytelling podcast as I do the dishes.
Dan's words, "... and we hope you have a story-worthy week...", has an odd effect on me.
I want to smash the Royal Albert teacup I'm holding and just SCREAM.
I want to yell, "Dan, I ran away from home this week because of invading lesbians! Dan, when I see French-polished fake fingernails I remember shooting porn in an apartment on Collins Street; the flashguns attracting the attention of office workers across the road! Dan, did you know when a body is released from the Coroner, sometimes they still need to keep the brain? It's not firm enough to slice into for an autopsy in the usual state so they need to pickle it, which takes a few weeks."
Story-worthy week? Story-worthy, and possibly somewhat accursed life.
This week:
It's around 5am, Tuesday morning. My buddy Oliver is sitting on my bed, helping me do a breathing exercise. Words coming out of my mouth like a busted record, "Can't...can't...can't...can't...can't... help...help...help...please...please..." I'd woken up screaming several times that night.
For the last week I'd been trying to get a new GP - the old one was fine for vaccinations, pap smears and colds. Terrible for mental health issues. Very anxiety causing, so I'd been taking Valium every day whilst I searched for a new one. Taking Valium every day not only very 60's-70's-80's, it's also very bad for you.
Around this time, The Boyfriend lets a young nineteen-year-old colleague stay with us for a couple of days, because she was being stalked. Plus, she also has an abusive forty-one-year-old girlfriend with whom she is extremely co-dependant.
Those couple of days turned into many days, every inch turning into a mile. The colleague's abusive girlfriend then comes and stays without permission, for one night, then two. More of their stuff was being moved into our house. This was very bad. And I was freaking the hell out.
So I ran away from home at stupid-o'clock in the morning with Oliver, whilst The Boyfriend had the nasty task of evicting the colleague/freeloader and her girlfriend from our house that night, after he came home from work.
I checked myself into a hotel room, hating myself for being broken, for not being strong enough to help with the whole, "Get out of our house you sociopathic bitches," thing which was The Boyfriend's task.
The Boyfriend is gentle, kind, strong and sweet, not unlike the treasured Mr JLB Matekoni from Alexander McCall Smith's 'No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency' series. I am a far, far nastier person than The Boyfriend.
I was also scared, because I had an appointment with a GP the next day and I was terrified that she would not be The One and the painful search would continue.
Looking for a new doctor isn't great under any circumstance, but looking for a new doctor whilst being a mental wreck is really, really difficult. I'd been to two already - the first guy gave me the creeps and the second guy just wasn't interested. It was like a shite version of OKCupid and Craigslist combined, but with my mind at stake.
And then the crazy Sapphic duo invade our home?
Seriously, you cannot make this stuff up. Sometimes I look at the sky, and wonder what character I am in this f**ked up script. What plot device comes next? What challenge will the protagonist face to move the story along?
So yeah Dan-from-The-Moth, I've had a 'story-worthy' week.
My whole life is a story no publisher would accept - they'd say it was too far-fetched, too unreal.
Death. Pornography. Honesty. Integrity. Madness. Dysfunctionality.
I live in interesting times. I have story-worthy weeks.
F**k you, fate, life and all the laughing deities. I will prevail (in a somewhat bitter fashion).
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Post-script
The freeloaders have been successfully thrown out. I have a new, better GP who will actually co-operate with my psychologist. I live in hope, but am curious about what the next 'plot device' is going to be.
Werewolves maybe?
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Rewiring the Noggin - An Ambitious Activity
Right. I've started to read a bunch of books. They've provided me with some of the knowledge so I can begin to make my way out of this maze.
Actually, if this horrid funk were an actual maze it would be built of cold, foggy glass bricks, and I'd come across just enough bland-tasting protein bars and occasional bit of limp salad and tepid water to keep me going.
Oh, and sometimes, a big landslide of poo would drop on my head and I'd have to start all over again.
So. A strategy. Umm... haven't got one yet, but it's being fervently worked on.
So let's try this for now:
Event - The WorkSafe claim has been accepted by my employer's insurance company.
I got a large package in the mail full of brochures and forms telling me so.
Acknowledged Emotions Regarding Event
Relief: I will have an income whilst recovering from my injury.
Fear: Receiving any correspondence or contact regarding the incident or my employer conjures up overwhelming amounts of anxiety and causes me to relive the experience in my head, resulting in stammering, incoherent speech and teeth-gnashing. Unpleasant. I just want to be left alone to get better thank-you-very-much.
Confusion: I'm not as organised as I once was. There are forms to be filled in and the brochures are of the 'one size fits all variety', with the general message of 'stay positive and focus on returning to work'.
This would be more appropriately directed towards a someone who's had a physical injury, but it's unhelpful in terms of someone who has had a severe psychological blow.
The people I have been speaking to have not been putting any pressure on me to return to the workplace, and have acknowledged that the printed information can be confusing in terms of volume and language.
Whilst this is a positive, I find the disparity between the literature and the spoken interactions can be distressing.
Resentment: Yes, it's a 'win', (success of claim = acknowledgement that work did royally f**k me up and it's not just me being stupid) but a very bitter one. This 'win' is a confirmation that there was gross neglect, lying (by omission or otherwise) and abuse of trust.
Why was I put in that position at all? The company I worked had a set of four values that I lived by.
Yet the decision-makers chose not to abide by the very values they (and their marketing team) created; the money they used in re-branding and selling those values to the staff and public totally wasted.
Is "put your money where your mouth is" no longer obvious?
Reframing
Now, this is where I attempt to put the above event under a different microscope and hope to 're-frame' it from an unhelpful perspective into a helpful one. This is hard, but here goes:
Re-frame 1 - I am fortunate that I shall be receiving 95% of my pre-injury income for 13 weeks.
This will allow me to pay bills, keep up my financial obligations, pay rent and eat food. Whilst my lifestyle been thrown down the rabbit hole (and yes, I'm still tumbling) at least the basics are accounted for. I'll also have a chance to do some of the regular things one enjoys, like going to the movies, eating out (not expensively!) on occasion and maybe going on little day trips to the countryside.
Oh my goodness. Revelation; I currently have the lifestyle of a penny-pinching, lavender-haired retiree. Laugh? Cry?
Both, I think.
Re-frame 2 - Whilst communicating with my employer, their insurer or having any associations or task relating to 'the incident', all parties involved have tried to be as helpful and courteous as possible, and are accepting of my limitations.
When I say, "this is upsetting", or "I can't speak to you because it can set off an anxiety episode", they generally get it.
When I ask to be left alone, they try not to bother me much.
Re-frame 3 - Whilst I am easily confused and am a cognitive mess (sometimes teacups are misplaced in the bathroom and face cream ends up in the pantry) I have been assigned a case manager by the insurance company that I can call and generally 'dump on' (oh my word, I've never been a 'dumper' and find this mortifying) when confused or freaked out. Poor chap...
Reframe 4 - I have won. It's shitty that there was even a battle in the first place, but my position has been vindicated.
And lastly, whilst this is not a re-frame, it's a last-resort, back-against-the-wall thought that sits in the back of my mind - I can instigate legal action if need be.
Horrid, but comforting.
~ Useful ~
Acknowledging the Negative in Leading Lasting Positive Change
Actually, if this horrid funk were an actual maze it would be built of cold, foggy glass bricks, and I'd come across just enough bland-tasting protein bars and occasional bit of limp salad and tepid water to keep me going.
Oh, and sometimes, a big landslide of poo would drop on my head and I'd have to start all over again.
So. A strategy. Umm... haven't got one yet, but it's being fervently worked on.
So let's try this for now:
- Acknowledgement and Reframing
Event - The WorkSafe claim has been accepted by my employer's insurance company.
I got a large package in the mail full of brochures and forms telling me so.
Acknowledged Emotions Regarding Event
Relief: I will have an income whilst recovering from my injury.
Fear: Receiving any correspondence or contact regarding the incident or my employer conjures up overwhelming amounts of anxiety and causes me to relive the experience in my head, resulting in stammering, incoherent speech and teeth-gnashing. Unpleasant. I just want to be left alone to get better thank-you-very-much.
Confusion: I'm not as organised as I once was. There are forms to be filled in and the brochures are of the 'one size fits all variety', with the general message of 'stay positive and focus on returning to work'.
This would be more appropriately directed towards a someone who's had a physical injury, but it's unhelpful in terms of someone who has had a severe psychological blow.
The people I have been speaking to have not been putting any pressure on me to return to the workplace, and have acknowledged that the printed information can be confusing in terms of volume and language.
Whilst this is a positive, I find the disparity between the literature and the spoken interactions can be distressing.
Resentment: Yes, it's a 'win', (success of claim = acknowledgement that work did royally f**k me up and it's not just me being stupid) but a very bitter one. This 'win' is a confirmation that there was gross neglect, lying (by omission or otherwise) and abuse of trust.
Why was I put in that position at all? The company I worked had a set of four values that I lived by.
Yet the decision-makers chose not to abide by the very values they (and their marketing team) created; the money they used in re-branding and selling those values to the staff and public totally wasted.
Is "put your money where your mouth is" no longer obvious?
Reframing
Now, this is where I attempt to put the above event under a different microscope and hope to 're-frame' it from an unhelpful perspective into a helpful one. This is hard, but here goes:
Re-frame 1 - I am fortunate that I shall be receiving 95% of my pre-injury income for 13 weeks.
This will allow me to pay bills, keep up my financial obligations, pay rent and eat food. Whilst my lifestyle been thrown down the rabbit hole (and yes, I'm still tumbling) at least the basics are accounted for. I'll also have a chance to do some of the regular things one enjoys, like going to the movies, eating out (not expensively!) on occasion and maybe going on little day trips to the countryside.
Oh my goodness. Revelation; I currently have the lifestyle of a penny-pinching, lavender-haired retiree. Laugh? Cry?
Both, I think.
Re-frame 2 - Whilst communicating with my employer, their insurer or having any associations or task relating to 'the incident', all parties involved have tried to be as helpful and courteous as possible, and are accepting of my limitations.
When I say, "this is upsetting", or "I can't speak to you because it can set off an anxiety episode", they generally get it.
When I ask to be left alone, they try not to bother me much.
Re-frame 3 - Whilst I am easily confused and am a cognitive mess (sometimes teacups are misplaced in the bathroom and face cream ends up in the pantry) I have been assigned a case manager by the insurance company that I can call and generally 'dump on' (oh my word, I've never been a 'dumper' and find this mortifying) when confused or freaked out. Poor chap...
Reframe 4 - I have won. It's shitty that there was even a battle in the first place, but my position has been vindicated.
And lastly, whilst this is not a re-frame, it's a last-resort, back-against-the-wall thought that sits in the back of my mind - I can instigate legal action if need be.
Horrid, but comforting.
~ Useful ~
Acknowledging the Negative in Leading Lasting Positive Change
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Not Your Normal Programming
On January 19th 2011, I suffered an acute anxiety attack whilst at work. I believe such incidents used to be referred to as a 'nervous breakdown', which sounds terribly 'One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest', but there you have it.
It had been a long time coming, and it wasn't my first one - although I love what I do, the conditions I'd been working under had been less than ideal for nearly a year. It then worsened considerably from November 2010 - staff reshuffling/shortages, inadequate training of new staff, secondments from other areas instead of hiring external skilled professionals, lack of management expertise, etc.
After much deliberation and anguish, I have put in a worker's compensation claim. It's been extraordinarily gruelling, and the claims review process is not conducive to one's mental health. HR advisors, insurance claim managers, investigators, my GP, my clinical psychologist and the WorkSafe accredited psychiatrist are people whom I had to interact with on a regular/semi-regular basis whilst the claim is being examined.
As another client of my psychologist has said, "They make it a lot worse before you can get better".
All people involved seem well-meaning, but when your poor noggin has snapped all you want is a chance to get better (I have been diagnosed with 'panic disorder with major depression'). You don't want to be carrying around paperwork in thick grey file, scheduling and re-scheduling appointments, carefully collecting receipts and making copies of everything.
It is hopeful that once the claim review process is over, I can concentrate on getting better and being well again. I have been as proactive as I can be, doing a lot of research in at my local library and dragging home books such as Norman Doidge's 'The Brain That Changes Itself', Mireille Guiliano's 'Women, Work and the Art of Savoire Faire: Business Sense and Sensibility' and anything by Malcolm Gladwell.
Due to my training in journalism and sheer bull-headedness, I am convinced that research will be the saviour, as well as a damn hard re-examination of oneself.
This quagmire is not going to rule me, and as my psychologist says, "This too shall pass". Even if I have to build a Rube Goldberg machine to do it.
The most difficult part has been a shift in identity. Like many of us, I had broken the promise I made to myself as a teenager - "Stay awesome and don't be defined by your job!"
So, who am I when I'm not Death's PA?
I don't know.
~ Useful ~
Wow... I just looked at my RSS feed and there's a ton of relevant posts and articles.
It had been a long time coming, and it wasn't my first one - although I love what I do, the conditions I'd been working under had been less than ideal for nearly a year. It then worsened considerably from November 2010 - staff reshuffling/shortages, inadequate training of new staff, secondments from other areas instead of hiring external skilled professionals, lack of management expertise, etc.
After much deliberation and anguish, I have put in a worker's compensation claim. It's been extraordinarily gruelling, and the claims review process is not conducive to one's mental health. HR advisors, insurance claim managers, investigators, my GP, my clinical psychologist and the WorkSafe accredited psychiatrist are people whom I had to interact with on a regular/semi-regular basis whilst the claim is being examined.
As another client of my psychologist has said, "They make it a lot worse before you can get better".
All people involved seem well-meaning, but when your poor noggin has snapped all you want is a chance to get better (I have been diagnosed with 'panic disorder with major depression'). You don't want to be carrying around paperwork in thick grey file, scheduling and re-scheduling appointments, carefully collecting receipts and making copies of everything.
It is hopeful that once the claim review process is over, I can concentrate on getting better and being well again. I have been as proactive as I can be, doing a lot of research in at my local library and dragging home books such as Norman Doidge's 'The Brain That Changes Itself', Mireille Guiliano's 'Women, Work and the Art of Savoire Faire: Business Sense and Sensibility' and anything by Malcolm Gladwell.
Due to my training in journalism and sheer bull-headedness, I am convinced that research will be the saviour, as well as a damn hard re-examination of oneself.
This quagmire is not going to rule me, and as my psychologist says, "This too shall pass". Even if I have to build a Rube Goldberg machine to do it.
The most difficult part has been a shift in identity. Like many of us, I had broken the promise I made to myself as a teenager - "Stay awesome and don't be defined by your job!"
So, who am I when I'm not Death's PA?
I don't know.
~ Useful ~
Wow... I just looked at my RSS feed and there's a ton of relevant posts and articles.
- Zen Habits - Burnout Is Beautiful: Guest Post by Melissa Gorzelanczyk of Peace and Projects
- The Telegraph's Think Tank: Ever felt like your job isn't what you were born to do? You're not alone
- Eat Your Career: 5 Tips On Planning A Career Change
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Even The Bigs Have Their Moments
My Ex-Boss will always be remembered as a tall stream of black-on-black. He resembled a young Hugh Hefner, but with more windswept, almost emo-ish hair.
For a time he was married to a cheery English blonde with a broad West County accent.
The marriage was a very honest arrangement - he could be with an attractive 19 year old (and possibly other attractive young women), she could stay in a country she preferred, get naked on-camera occasionally for income, and study tourism.
Whilst Cheery Blonde was nearly twenty years younger, that didn't stop them getting along well and being jolly good mates. Even if you marry for convenience, you've still got to like the person.
Ex-Boss lived a comfortable life. Making Internet porn brought in a lot of money - he owned a large Victorian home in an expensive suburb, drove a sporty-yet-subtle RX8 and had all the Eames furniture a design boffin like himself could ever want.
But one morning, just after the coffee run, we had an odd exchange.
"Dee, you don't think I look... gay, do you?", he said, holding his long black. He stared at me intently, then looked away and took a gulp from his cup. I noticed how his hair swished boyishly. He habitually flicked it away from his face, his head doing this little 'woosh' thing.
I had to lie... quickly.
"No, you don't look like a man who likes men like that. Sometimes androgynous, maybe, but in a David Bowie kind of way." I knew Ex-Boss liked Bowie. A man of his generation, who thought himself as part of the Zeitgeist couldn't not like Bowie. Right?
"Cool. Okay. Thanks." The tall black stream walked away. Back to his desk, setting himself down.
The monitor's cold light reflected upon his angular features and his full head of gorgeous hair.
It wasn't his fault his hands were graceful, or that he dressed well and smelled clean, or used complete sentences with an educated tone.
He was a man-yet-not-a-man, he could pull most items apart and see how it was made, then put it back together again. He loved fixing mechanical items, he loved old factories and abandoned, once-useful places.
But he didn't like the football, and he didn't have any man friends he could invite over for a barbecue and watch sport with.
He didn't look like a man that made porn - he looked like an architect. The type of architect who didn't like engineers. Plus, he was amazingly bitchy and grumpy at times... in a terrible PMS-ish, snapping, sarcastic kind of way.
His world was made of fading light, Adobe products, long hours and beautiful young women who felt unnaturally comfortable around him.
It was this comfort that caused some to ask me, "Is he gay?"
"No", I'd reply, "He's just a bit like David Bowie".
For a time he was married to a cheery English blonde with a broad West County accent.
The marriage was a very honest arrangement - he could be with an attractive 19 year old (and possibly other attractive young women), she could stay in a country she preferred, get naked on-camera occasionally for income, and study tourism.
Whilst Cheery Blonde was nearly twenty years younger, that didn't stop them getting along well and being jolly good mates. Even if you marry for convenience, you've still got to like the person.
Ex-Boss lived a comfortable life. Making Internet porn brought in a lot of money - he owned a large Victorian home in an expensive suburb, drove a sporty-yet-subtle RX8 and had all the Eames furniture a design boffin like himself could ever want.
But one morning, just after the coffee run, we had an odd exchange.
"Dee, you don't think I look... gay, do you?", he said, holding his long black. He stared at me intently, then looked away and took a gulp from his cup. I noticed how his hair swished boyishly. He habitually flicked it away from his face, his head doing this little 'woosh' thing.
I had to lie... quickly.
"No, you don't look like a man who likes men like that. Sometimes androgynous, maybe, but in a David Bowie kind of way." I knew Ex-Boss liked Bowie. A man of his generation, who thought himself as part of the Zeitgeist couldn't not like Bowie. Right?
"Cool. Okay. Thanks." The tall black stream walked away. Back to his desk, setting himself down.
The monitor's cold light reflected upon his angular features and his full head of gorgeous hair.
It wasn't his fault his hands were graceful, or that he dressed well and smelled clean, or used complete sentences with an educated tone.
He was a man-yet-not-a-man, he could pull most items apart and see how it was made, then put it back together again. He loved fixing mechanical items, he loved old factories and abandoned, once-useful places.
But he didn't like the football, and he didn't have any man friends he could invite over for a barbecue and watch sport with.
He didn't look like a man that made porn - he looked like an architect. The type of architect who didn't like engineers. Plus, he was amazingly bitchy and grumpy at times... in a terrible PMS-ish, snapping, sarcastic kind of way.
His world was made of fading light, Adobe products, long hours and beautiful young women who felt unnaturally comfortable around him.
It was this comfort that caused some to ask me, "Is he gay?"
"No", I'd reply, "He's just a bit like David Bowie".
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
What The Naked Ladies Taught Me - Work/Life Advice From The Adult Industry
In 2004 I worked long hours, multitasking several functions. Booking models, herding models, interviewing models, trying not to yell at models - there were days if I saw one more beautiful, naked woman I would throw down my clipboard and scream.
There was a range of wildly differing personalities - from the photographer who lived on a diet of milk and M&M's to the adorable Star Wars-crazy video editor so painfully shy she asked me to call a restaurant to book her 30th birthday dinner ("If I could email them it would fine, but I don't do talking well").
In 2004 I worked for a recently established company that made pornography for the interwebs. It taught me a lot.
There was a range of wildly differing personalities - from the photographer who lived on a diet of milk and M&M's to the adorable Star Wars-crazy video editor so painfully shy she asked me to call a restaurant to book her 30th birthday dinner ("If I could email them it would fine, but I don't do talking well").
In 2004 I worked for a recently established company that made pornography for the interwebs. It taught me a lot.
- Be Alert and Appropriate - If the model's real name is Laura and her stage name is Suzy, always call her 'Suzy' on-set and on-camera. However, never EVER fail to call her 'Laura' on her personal cellphone, 'legit' workplace or home.
Don't make life difficult for key stakeholders by forgetting vital information.
- Process and Routine, Always - Bras, shirts, knickers, skirts; all worn, slightly sweaty and dumped on my desk from a late-night shoot. You'd think that a company making porn would have some sort of laundry arrangement, but no. So after glaring down the the rest of the office and screaming, "Who the hell put this s**t on my desk?!", I worked out the most basic of systems. After-shoot clothing would go into a basket to be hauled to the laundromat weekly. Simple. Necessary. I don't know what the moral of the story is, maybe 'pornographers would make terrible stay-at-home moms/dads'?
Moral or not - the point is have a system, make it consistent and stick to it.
Even big, established organisations regularly mess this one up e.g. new management coming in and saying, "We'll change everything! Just 'cause."
- Data Is Useless Unless You Use It - When interviewing new talent we gathered their measurements as well as a variety of photos; a face-only shot, a full-body shot (front/back), a waist-up shot and a waist-up side shot. We used the data to choose models for upcoming shoots, "Hey, maybe we'll do a girl-girl with this cute androgynous brunette with this curvy tall redhead, good combo? Let's book it".
Many companies gather data without purpose. Maybe they'll start a project and hold monthly meetings about their poor SEO stats... and eventually do nothing about it. There's nothing more impotent than a group of execs in a meeting room with charts, statistics and no results.
I've worked in an organisation that held a meeting to discuss too many worthless meetings. Please, for the love of all that's holy, don't be these guys.
- Adapt or Starve - Models are not the most reliable of people. Sometimes they've smoked too much weed the night before (you can always tell 'weed-eye' in a photo!) and you can't shoot, or maybe their boyfriend shagged their best friend and the fallout is happening the day you've scheduled stills and video. Initiative and action is required. The most admirable example I've witnessed was when a staff member who was an ex-model suggested she do a 'toy review' shoot when another regular shoot fell through. She and the photographer went straight to nearby adult store, bought a bunch of newly-released toys and gadgets and proceeded to shoot stills and video of her using them.
Save the day by using your spark.
- Stay On-Trend Whilst Being Yourself - Part of my role was to keep a regular eye on Fleshbot (link really, REALLY NSFW), the Huffington Post of the porn world. It kept us informed about what was out there and more importantly, the context and relevance of our content in the industry. We didn't need to do hardcore S&M because there are a good number of quality providers, we didn't need to Ren-Faire style shoots because that area was covered. We also managed to find out how incredibly important the AVN Adult Entertainment Expo is, as well as news about divergent markets and opportunities. Keep an eye on the trades and blogs to look for opportunities and monitor where you're placed - but stay true.
Some days, when the sky is blue and the sun is camera-ready, I look up and wonder, "What are they shooting now?"
2004 was freakin' nuts, but it was the sharp end of life's educational sledgehammer.
I do miss it sometimes.
2004 was freakin' nuts, but it was the sharp end of life's educational sledgehammer.
I do miss it sometimes.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Fast Post of Good Stuff #1
Things I like.
1) VIETNAMERICA graphic novel - via Warren Ellis.
2) Morning sunshine. Actually, you'd be an ass to not like morning sunshine. Unless severely hungover, of course.
3) Games with great storylines that I don't play, but my boyfriend does - Red Dead Redemption, Uncharted 2, Assasin's Creed: Brotherhood. I get to sit back and do cross-stitch embroidery, but when a cut scene appears I enjoy that too. Without mashing a single button on a PS3 controller.
My old lady pastime is indulged, yet my Gen Y knowledge base increases. WIN!
4) Bacon. Oh, and mushrooms. Together.
1) VIETNAMERICA graphic novel - via Warren Ellis.
2) Morning sunshine. Actually, you'd be an ass to not like morning sunshine. Unless severely hungover, of course.
3) Games with great storylines that I don't play, but my boyfriend does - Red Dead Redemption, Uncharted 2, Assasin's Creed: Brotherhood. I get to sit back and do cross-stitch embroidery, but when a cut scene appears I enjoy that too. Without mashing a single button on a PS3 controller.
My old lady pastime is indulged, yet my Gen Y knowledge base increases. WIN!
4) Bacon. Oh, and mushrooms. Together.
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